Butternut squash

If you don't know who you are...

...How can your dreams come true? My triathlon season is 5 days away from kicking way back up into high-gear.  On Sunday I'll be in DC racing the Nations Tri- a pretty big and competitive Olympic distance race. I am feeling very confident about myself and firmly believe that what you believe is what you will make happen.  The opposition is going to be fierce so I will take it for what it is, however, after doing some research lately, I'm coming to believe that our minds are our only limiters and that believing in yourself, you can push through any pain that you believe limits you!  After this race, I have a week off before Ironman 70.3 Augusta, my third half ironman of the season.

But lately I've been somewhat questioning myself- not questioning my ability, but questioning WHO I am racing for.  Recently, it has seemed that I am not grinding through hard workouts solely for myself, but so that I can work harder, work more, and live up to the expectations of the people who follow me.  Whether it be coworkers, friends, my family, and even all the other triathlete I interact with on Twitter... What if they are doing more that me, what if they rode their bikes 60 miles and I only rode 50? Well what F**king if?!  If I do "less" than another person, does that make me a worse athlete?  Does it mean that I then need to eat way less to make up for that?  I'll let you decide on what you think the answer is...

Who cares?  I need to race/train/LIVE for me, not anyone else. But this being said, let me train, race, and eat because of them, not for them. It is motivation to see the success of others- people who have turned from non-athletes to Ironmen, of for people who cannot do what I do as much as they'd like to. Or even for those who have NO desire to do anything I do--I know my mom is absolutely no way wants to do a half-Ironman, but I do know that she is proud to watch me race in HEALTHY, competitive, properly nourished fashion.

So who am I? I'm someone who races for the love and passion of it all- not to be "better" than anyone else, or, God forbid, for an excuse to all myself to eat.

What really has me excited and nervous though, is my impending ITU Long Course Championships triathlon in Las Vegas in November.  This race, as I've mentioned, is on the world stage and is going to require a lot of hard work from me starting... well a month a go, ha. I got my registration notice in my e-mail today and have to sign up by the end of the week (gulp!)  The race is like a 3/4 ironman so it will be the longest race I've done to date.  But you know what?  Who knows when I will get this chance to be part of Team USA again?  It will be hot, hilly, windy, and unforgiving... But I'll finish... and I'll finish strong.

And check out the new Team Apex Endurance gear I'll be repping for the rest of the season!

I missed all the rides I had planed this weekend, but was really proud of myself for getting out and putting in work on my own.  Sunday I did a 4.5 mile run, 25.5 miles bike, 3.2 mile run, 60 minutes on the spin bike (20 miles), and another 1.6 mile run. Then Monday, I used the same format, but made the outdoor ride 10 miles longer.  Dude, the wind was BRUTAL this weekend!  This was all on the old Felt too, as the my baby, my B12, is en route to DC!

So if you're in DC this weekend, let me know and let's meet up!

I also know its been forever since I've blogged!  Here's a quick recap of my why and whats been going on:

First I was in New York with the family for a day (and got to meet up with Katelyn!)

After that, the family and I went to a lake where I got to spend another day with them before jetting off the Virginia Beach for work

After spending the week in Virginia Beach, it was back to Tampa for a weekend or so. Got some good training in and some awesome homemade grub.  I've basically just been using coconut oil to bake butternut or sweet potatoes fries... um like every night. So healthy, and if it tastes good, why not, right?? I have like 30 different variations now, haha, so just ask if you want to know what they are.

Then, later that week, I had to fly to Atlanta for work for a couple nights.  Finally I'm home, but I'm flying to DC Friday morning for the race! And, yay, I get to fly home just hours after the race to be back at work Monday... whoop whoop!

Think about something you do that your are passionate about... now ask yourself WHY you are passionate about it?  Rekindle that love for it and do it for you!

  1. What is that thing you are most passionate about and why?
  2. Best thing you had to eat this week? And how do you use coconut oil, if you don't, any reason why?
Have an amazing week!

20 things that make life awesome and WIATFMBW

I hope by now you've all had a chance to check me and Lori's recipes and left comments on our posts!  I can't get any pictures, but will have a video up soon.  Can anyone tell me how to post a video I record using iMovie on my mac??
Anyways, this has been a long week of travel but I got to see my family and also go back to Virginia Beach for some job training.  Although, I've had the absolute worst experiences, I'm going to stay positive.
Speaking of positivity, here are 20 little things that occurred to me that make like awesome:
  1. All of you.  Thank you for everyone’s comments on my last post and the support you gave to me.  It’s really helping me get through a little bit of a rough patch right now.
  2. Summer and sunshine—I am loving Florida right now, but didn’t realize how much so until 2 realizations.  First, it’s been rainy and gross the past 2 days and I’ve hated every minute of it.  Second, I realized that when I am doing the Disney Half Marathon in October, it will still be hot!
  3. Sweet potatoes—they’re just so versatile and I can fit them into any meal.  Either with coconut oil, in my almond butter fry recipe, topped with butter, almond butter, or with cheddar cheese (and possibly a little maple syrup to get the maple cheddar flavor).  And always cinnamon
  4. Butternut squash—See “Sweet Potato”
  5. Riding bikes outside—There’s nothing better than hitting the road and riding in the sun after a long day, especially a long ride on the weekend with other people who will push you
  6. The pool at my apartment building—I swear its longer than an Olympic size pool… which either makes me feel like I’m doing more work or that I’m really slow, ha
  7. My little brother—the only person who can relate when I call him at 1 o’clock in the morning to tell him about a story on the news with a headline that read “Library rape benefit”.  No thanks, I’ll take my library membership without the rape, thank you.  What it should have said was “Benefit function held at the library to raise money to fight against rape.”  Syntax people.
  8. Food Network—come on now, it’s only channel you can put on for background noise in the evening and it will always entertain… although does anyone else think “Chopped” is on like all the time now?
  9. People who go out of their way to explore real research behind the science of nutrition and how we should be eating—I’m always doing research, hence why I am trying a paleo diet right now, and become more enlightened everyday from the different viewpoints I read and truths that are exposed.
  10. Trying new recipes that I make up AND being successful at them—enough said
  11. Discovering new awesome blogs—you know when you Google something and actually find a recipe or an idea that sparks you?  Or your find another local triathlete who lives nearby and actually end up training with them?
  12. Racing triathlons—nothing beats it.  Training can suck sometimes, but nothing beats racing
  13. My 4Runner—my bike fits inside it no problem
  14. Twitter, and everyone I’ve met through it—it’s amazing the amount of support I’ve found through Twitter and blogging.  It’s a pretty cool phenomenon
  15. Crunchy almond butter—yeah bro,  Don’t bring the smooth crap up in here
  16. People who have changed my life, yet I have never met—that’s most of you.  Thank you, and I pray that one day I can meet and thank you.
  17. Other who are battling and winning against an eating disorder who are there for me to give advice but also ask for and listen to advice
  18. My eating disorder--not for the disease itself, but for all the strength and learning about myself it has allowed me to see.
  19. The “Favorite” button on Twitter--I read through Twitter all day and every time I see an interesting article or link, I “Favorite” it from my phone, then go back and read them all on my computer as I eat dinner in the evening.
  20. Broccoli--and did I mention Ketchup??  (Need to break that obsession lol)

So what about you?  What are some little things that make your life awesome?

Also, here is my first ever WIATFMBW! That stands for “What I Ate To Fuel My Body (last) Wednesday!”  Wanna get faster, better, and healthier?  You have to got to eat well and enough to fuel your exercise AND fuel your recovery!

Breakfast: 3 scrambled whole eggs with lean chicken sausage and some veggies, plus an apple

Lunch: Grilled chicken breast, sweet potato slices with cinnamon, and an apple

Pre-workout snack (Not pictured): Chocolate banana shake... with some grapes blended in.  Yeahhh.... thats about how it tasted...

Dinner: BBQ wild caught salmon and nut butter sweet potato fries, with broccoli and grapes!

And then of course my usual nighttime shake with protein and milk.  Along with my latest obsession, almond butter mixed with Tropical Traditions coconut cream!

  1. What are some of the little things that make your life awesome?
  2. What was the best think you ate on Wednesday?