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Back to Life

Four months between posts is far too long, but I didn't know where to start and when the right time to post again would be.  I'm back in Tampa and have been since November and I'm loving it and the beautiful weather!  I completed treatment in late October and flew back to DC for a couple of days to spend time with my family and then they flew back to Tampa with me to help me get resettled.  Thanks to the storm, we got stuck in DC for 1 few extra days, but it was not big deal. Moving back into my apartment was rough and scary--mostly because I was afraid my refrigerator would have shut off and melted all over my apartment or something--but honestly it wasn't too bad! Since then I've been working a lot trying to catch up on everything and move ahead.  That's gone fairly well, especially with some unexpected turnover that left me reporting to a number of different people.

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But whats new right? How am I doing?  At this point, pretty well!  I get to see my friends a lot more than I was before.  I haven't been able to workout with them or go to swim practice as much as I'd like because of work getting in the way a lot or traveling for work or the holidays.  Eating is going well, it is definitely hard on some days though when I look in the mirror. Sometimes, I'm actually pretty happy with how I look but other times it's very hard.  The mirror is ok, but pictures are very difficult, to be honest. I know it probably may seem to others like I'm still struggling, and at times I really am, but I'm pushing myself every day at new struggles.  I'm still really trying to figure out what's right for me in terms of eating and exercise.  I want to build muscle and get stronger but I also want to get back into competitive triathlon shape BUT NOT in a disordered way.  Those 2 goals are just difficult to balance in terms of energy balance and how much and what one needs to eat to build muscle while getting faster.  I just really don't want to look like I did before though, that's for sure! But most importantly, I don't want that to be what my life is about.  I've been able to go out with friends and not talk about triathlon at all and holy crap its amazing! Like going to watch 2 amazing friends  get married. Oh, and the week before that, on New Years eve, 2 other amazing friends got married, but I couldn't make it as I was still up in DC!

Meghann and Derek's wedding

But in triathlon news, once I again I have been selected to race for the 2013 Wattie Ink Elite triathlon team!  Wattie Ink are amazing though and selected me while allowing me to explain my situation and said that for to me to race longer than an Olympic distance triathlon would be dangerous to my recovery. I'm looking forward to traveling to the races I can and meet and support teammates even if I'm not racing.

Christmas was great and I got to spend a lot of time home with family--including my brother and sister who I hadn't seen in a year! We went to Rochester, NY, immediately after Christmas and got 18-inches of snow on our first night there... damn I love Florida!  That whole snow thing without having anything more than 1 big coat isn't fun.  I need some boots I guess?  Maybe I should just keep a pair in Rochester.

Christmas eve style

And in more immediate news, HOCKEY IS BACK! I went to the Lightning's opening game against the Capitals on Saturday--a friend from work had VIP box seats, so that was pretty awesome! The Caps are my favorite team, but it was good to see the Lightning win!

Lightning game

 

 

Well I know this was all over the place as I tried to fit 4 months into a few paragraphs.  But I want to start writing more often as I've got some fun things in the work.  I miss all my friends at the ERC like crazy but know I'll see them again in a healthy way soon.

Thanks for reading y'all and thank you for everyone who has embraced me in my return and been so helpful.

 

 

Flipturns

I have a new outlook.  It came from my coach this week.  We were on our way to a ride in Ocala (more on this later…) after swimming and I was beginning to think I might bail on the ride.  I was planning to go to a hockey game that night and didn’t want to be late, and, of course, by going home, I could make sure I had comfortable foods to eat and just ride where I knew I would get a good workout. Felipe was in the car in front of me and I called him to discuss this and he really let me have it- brutal honesty in the most beneficial way it can come.  And it plays to so many factors in my life.  He basically said “I’m trying to help you, but you keep finding ways out of it and being sketch.” This was true.  He brought up the example of doing flipturns in the pool.  Right now, I don’t (didn’t) do them because while I can do it, I’m not great at it and don’t like it and stick with my comfortable “quick-touch and go” method.  But, he has told me many times to do exclusively flipturns.  If I don’t start, how will I ever learn to do them or really break my fear of them?  I never will.

Then he said something that sort of blew my mind—“it’s better to do the right thing wrong than to do the wrong thing wrong.”

How true!  This is so relevant to anything in my life—unless you buy in and bite off that piece of success, how do you expect to get better?  Instead of knowing there is a problem and then looking for excuses of how to get out of it, why not proactively face them and discuss them with someone who can help?  Instead of hiding my fear of flipturns, Felipe told me tell him!  Say, “Felipe, I’m not good at flipturns and they scare me—how can we work together to overcome this problem?”

Face your problems head on—don’t run from them—get comfortable with being uncomfortable.  That’s how you get better, in love, life, sport, or anything—it plays true everywhere.

And well, speaking of Ocala and our ride there… let’s say it was quite and adventure ; ) …

Ocala is the HITS half Ironman course that we will be racing in March.  The goal was to ride the course and do a time trial on the back end.  I ended up going ahead of the friends I was with and just thought, duh, I’ll right turns at every dead end and then make all the left turns coming home.  Problem with this logic is that you have to remember where those left turns are, since they aren’t dead ends on the way back!  So after 23 miles, knowing I had to be back for the hockey game, I turned around and began heading back to the car.  It’s funny how one wrong turn can ruin a ride…

Another 25 miles later and I was totally lost.  Turns out I had looped back and was almost back (unknowingly) to the place where I had turned around.  Since no one wanted to stop and help me on the road, I wound up at a gun range with a bunch of “country folk”… after some bargaining and figuring out where the F my car was (about 18 miles in the other direction) I finally convinced a “feller” there to drive me back for $15.

When I got back to the car I found Jess and Felipe waiting, very worried, and also learned that the police helicopter that had been circling the park was actually looking for me…  Ha, we then called the sheriff and let him know to call off the search and then he came and made sure I was in fact alright.  Well, my adventure wasn’t yet over as I had to go back to the gun range and get my bike. Then just head south and drive straight back to Tampa right? Wrong- try being on the long split of the highway and heading halfway to Orlando... LONGEST DAY EVER!

When I wasn’t being lost the ride felt great—I felt strong and fast and even though I haven’t been riding a ton, this was really promising!  My speed was good and my heart rate seemed like it was a solid spot. Just got to up the mileage a little bit now.

So take those lessons this week—it’s better to do the right thing wrong, than to do the wrong thing wrong. And then, what Felipe thought may possibly be my last words to him—“real men eat the banana peel.”

So do flipturns and eat the peel.  Words to live by.

  1. How was your weekend?
  2. Send any sports/training/nutrition questions you have--we are recording the next podcast this weekend with hopefully a pro triathlete!
  3. Anything fun going on this week?